No Makeup: Day Two

Last night the dinner with my boyfriend and his father took place, as planned.

At first I thought it was going to be awkward, totally emphasizing the fact that I looked different from the last time he'd seen me. I was worried that he would look at my face and notice the differences too inquisitively and it would embarrass me for the rest of the night. Thankfully that didn't happen.

I guess you could say I'm over dramatic and all but lets face it about every other girl I've known so far in my life, even my mother, has had some particularity about the way she looks before she steps out of the house to face the rest of the world. Half of the time it doesn't even have to be about make up. The self criticism will start before that about our physical appearance.

I don't know why we do it but we do. I'm not going to blame it solely on the media or something like that. Because honestly its about what you want to be. Or being who and how you are.

I'm starting to get used to this.. I mean don't get me wrong I'm never going to give up on the stuff completely because lets face it even if you're not a make up addict its just fun. But I'm not going to wear it how I used to. I used to wear it like I had something to hide.

But I'm not going to get too ahead of myself. All this optimism and it's only day two. hah. so we'll see. I do have a quote to leave you with, its got some thoughts attached to it too bare with me. :] At the end of the night my boyfriend's father hugged bother of us, his son first and then me.

But he said something that really touched me, he said while looking me straight in the eyes kindly "You must be a pretty sweet girl, to be with this really sweet guy."

That compliment meant more to me than anything else said that evening. It told me what someone saw in me. And I appreciated that so much.

I wish I didn't have to hear from other people words of affirmation that make me realize whats really important. At this moment the important things are starting to look pretty natural.