No Makeup - Day One

So, today is the first day of this Vice Project. It hasn’t hit me yet, that I probably don’t look like my usual confident self. If I was outside myself looking at this face, I don’t know. I would just wonder I guess. Wonder what goes on inside this head.

I don’t look like the usual face anymore. I don’t look like most girls anymore. But I still don’t consider it an improvement yet like my parents and others close to me are trying to help me view it as.

To me it just feels a little bit like nakedness.

Kind of creepy.

I don’t mind it too much. That’s probably the only good part. But I feel like my face is the best tool I have to impression people with. And tonight is probably going to be the hardest night of this whole project because I have to go with my boyfriend and his father for the first time on like a solo date thing. I’ve eaten out with his family before but his father is never really around because he lives in San Diego. And he’s basically one of the most important figures in my boyfriend’s life, it’d be nice to be confident tonight. But it’s going to be a little different.